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                 "ALL CATS ARE GREY"
                 

      I never thought that I would find myself
      In bed amongst the stones
      The columns are all men
      Begging to crush me
      No shapes sail on the dark deep lakes
      And no flags wave me home

      In the caves
      All cats are grey
      In the caves
      The textures coat my skin
      In the death cell
      A single note
      Rings on and on and on



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                       "DOUBT"
                       

      Stop my flight to fight
      And die
      And take a stand to change my life
      So savage with red desperation
      I clench my hands
      You draw your claws
      A hidden rage consumes my heart
      Fuelled by years of wasted time
      I close my eyes
      And tense myself
      And screaming
      Throw myself in fury over the edge
      And into your blood

      Tear at flesh
      And rip at skin
      And smash at doubt
      I have to break you
      Fury drives my vicious blows
      I see you fall but still I strike you
      Again and again
      Your body falls
      The movement is sharp and clear and pure
      And gone
      I stop and kneel beside you
      Drained of everything but pain

      Screaming throw myself in fury
      Over the edge and into your blood

      Kiss you once and see you writhe
      Hold you close and hear you cry
      Kiss your eyes and finish your life
      Kiss your eyes
      Finish your life

      Again and again
      Your body falls
      The movement is sharp and clear and pure
      And gone
      I stop and kneel beside you
      Knowing I'll murder you again tonight

      Knowing I'll murder you again
      Knowing I'll murder you again
      Knowing I'll murder you again
      Knowing I'll murder you again
      Tonight



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                 "THE DROWNING MAN"
                 

      She stands twelve feet above the flood
      She stares
      Alone
      Across the water

      The loneliness grows and slowly
      Fills her frozen body
      Sliding downwards

      One by one her senses die
      The memories fade
      And leave her eyes
      Still seeing worlds that never were
      And one by one the bright birds leave her ...

      Starting at the violent sound
      She tries to turn
      But final
      Noiseless
      Slips and strikes her soft dark head
      The water bows
      Receives her
      And drowns her at its ease
      Drowns her at its ease

      I would have left the world all bleeding
      Could I only help you love
      The fleeting shapes
      So many years ago
      So young and beautiful and brave

      Everything was true
      It couldn't be a story

      I wish it was all true
      I wish it couldn't be a story
      The words all left me
      Lifeless
      Hoping
      Breathing like the drowning man

      Oh Fushia
      You leave me
      Breathing like the drowning man
      Breathing like the drowning man



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                       "FAITH"
                       

      Catch me if I fall
      I'm losing hold
      I can't just carry on this way
      And every time
      I turn away
      Lose another blind game
      The idea of perfection holds me
      Suddenly I see you change
      Everything at once
      The same
      But the mountain never moves

      Rape me like a child
      Christened in blood
      Painted like an unknown saint
      There's nothing left but hope
      Your voice is dead
      And old
      And always empty
      Trust in me through closing years
      Perfect moments wait
      If only we could stay
      Please
      Say the right words
      Or cry like the stone white clown
      And stand forever
      Lost forever in a happy crowd

      No one lifts their hands
      No one lifts their eyes
      Justified with empty words
      The party just gets better and better

      I went away alone
      With nothing left
      But faith



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                 "THE FUNERAL PARTY"
                 

      Two pale figures
      Ache in silence
      Timeless
      In the quiet ground
      Side by side
      In age and sadness

      I watched
      And acted wordlessly
      As piece by piece
      You performed your story
      Moving through an unknown past
      Dancing at the funeral party

      Memories of childrens dreams
      Lie lifeless
      Fading
      Lifeless
      Hand in hand with fear and shadows
      Crying at the funeral party

      I heard a song
      And turned away
      As piece by piece
      You performed your story
      Noiselessly across the floor
      Dancing at the funeral party



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                   "THE HOLY HOUR"
                   

      I kneel and wait in silence
      As one by one the people slip away
      Into the night
      The quiet and empty bodies
      Kiss the ground before they pray
      Kiss the ground
      And slip away

      I sit and listen dreamlessly
      A promise of salvation makes me stay
      Then look at your face
      And feel my heart pushed in
      As all around the children play
      The games they tired of yesterday
      They play
      They play

      I stand and hear my voice
      Cry out
      A wordless scream at ancient power
      It breaks against stone
      I softly leave you crying
      I cannot hold what you devour
      The sacrifice of penance
      In the holy hour



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                   "OTHER VOICES"
                   

       Whisper your name in an empty room
      You brush past my skin
      As soft as fur
      Taking hold
      I taste your scent
      Distant noises
      Other voices
      Pounding in my broken head
      Commit the sin
      Commit yourself
      And all the other voices said
      Change your mind

      You're always wrong
      Always wrong

      Come around at christmas
      I really have to see you
      Smile at me slyly
      Another festive compromise
      But I live with desertion
      And eight million people
      Distant noises
      Of other voices
      Pulsing in my swinging arms
      Caress the sound
      So many dead
      And all the other voices sing
      Change your mind
      You're always wrong



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                      "PRIMARY"
                      

      The innocence of sleeping children
      Dressed in white
      And slowly dreaming
      Stops all time
      Slow my steps and start to blur
      So many years have filled my heart
      I never thought I'd say those words

      The further we go
      And older we grow
      The more we know ...
      The less we show ...

      The very first time I saw your face
      I thought of a song
      And quickly changed the tune
      The very first time I touched your skin
      I thought of a story
      And rushed to reach the end
      Too soon

      Oh remember
      Please
      Don't change

      So the fall came
      Thirteen years
      A shiny ring
      And how I could forget your name
      The air no longer in my throat
      Another perfect lie is choked
      But it always feels the same

      So they close together
      Dressed in red and yellow
      Innocent forever
      Sleeping children in their blue soft rooms
      Still dream

      The further we go
      And older we grow
      The more we know ...
      The less we show ...


